Happy Veteran's Day!
I've been a military wife (Coastie wife) for a little over a year, and on this very Veteran's Day, I learned a little something about what it means to be a military wife. I felt the deep and desperate punch in the stomach I suppose every spouse feels, when the words leave their loved ones mouth - "I am going" (out to sea, to the Middle East, etc...) Why does HE have to go, why MY husband, this is just not the right time.
I knew the day would come. I just ignored the approach of that day and prayed it would be when I felt secure in our situation (we just moved to the Olympic Peninsula of Washington State in July - my first military move). I guess this year will be full of firsts for all of us.
This Christmas, our daughter's first Christmas, we may spend apart. Word came in today that my husband may be heading out to sea by the end of this month ( in just 2 1/2 weeks ) and he'll be gone until March.
I am sure that there are many many military wives that would cherish a 4 month deployment, and I am not downplaying the length of time they have to give up. I am simply writing about the emotions and thoughts I am feeling.
I hate the fact that our life, as chaotic and unorganized as it is, may be completely changed. I am so saddened to think that Kyle won't experience Stella's first Christmas, or so many of those other firsts she's about to experience.
I wonder how, I will function and what this will mean for our relationship and what life will be like when he comes home.
Pray that we have the strength to deal with whatever happens and that we will cherish our time together, either way. We should know if he will be going by next week sometime! Much love!
